February

28 days till New Years
27 weeks till my birthday
26 weeks since Jameece was born
25 hours I’ve been working straight
24 minutes until the ambulance comes
23 seconds since my last migraine
22 jobs that turned me down for my looks
21 days till Christmas
20 cents that I don’t have
19 pounds overweight
18 days till unemployment
17 years in the projects
16 calluses on my hands
15 dollars feeds my family for a week
14 mile walk to work
13 days since the car stopped
12 months this shit cycles
11 hours since my son was shot
10 dollars to my name
9 lives 
8 suicide attempts
7 years to find myself
6 abusive relationships
5 jobs
4 children
3 rooms
2 many bills
1 bed
1 life
1 chance
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one bullet to end it all