4am in the morning
Reading comments I find amazing
Playing “Baby You” from “1992”
By The Game, I’m relating
Reading comments from Torria changing
Her life from one meeting, thinking
What a beautiful being, beginning
Then thoughts drift to my profound ending
Thoughts of my children living
And those that didn’t make it
The thoughts I live with daily weigh on me,
yet I don’t say shhhh
The lies and crimes sprayed on me
The mind of a prophet who doesn’t profit stays hungry,
Lonely is how my road flows
My life is not for show.
I’m a no-show for hoes.
Faded thoughts of holding you
Look what you did, they got hold of you
They got a hold of you, Look what you did
So glad that I’m over you, this release is overdue
Gave you keys to my heart after i opened you.
A portion of you opened me,
I knew we wouldn’t make the trip
Many nights I prepared for this
Questioning how deep was I in this unstable myst of bliss
Our “Eye Date” was my way of saving clips
Before waking to a waving ship,
Shaken by a psychotic woman deeply hit
With a corked bat, bit by a snake, cooned by a rat
I was so tuned into you, I didn’t see the stage had been set
You read the cliff notes and tried to pass the test.
Sifting through my messages,
I hope you found the message that you needed
With others I have, though with you I have never cheated
What a way to react!
You returned home with a home run
Fine, Run home to a home now gone
With a sensational sob story that’s less boring than
“I was losing my mind so now I’m home.”
It was, “He sought me out through news clips.”
You repeated Blue’s shit as though it was true!
How dare you.
I guess the quiet nights with our necks crooked
from watching the dancing northern lights
Were with a woman I never knew
You sold your box, I unboxed your soul
You were still chained to a world I had long let go
Light a joint and get lost in the weed, smoke
Rise and Fly, you sent lies and shockwaves across seas
I’m glad you pulled away those that really didn’t know me
I feel like I never knew you, and I hope you feel the same
That’s the emotional pill that numbed the pain
What a shame! You see, I have to hold my poise when
Thinking of the abortion and noise when you were poisoned
By news from who those positioned the closest
Whispering twisted truths, truth is I’m twisted too, I know this
And alone is where I’m home, I’ve noticed.
Though somehow with you I had kept growing
what’s cool is that without you, I nearly lost it,
Then a special smile pierced my darkest darkness.
We were on a roller coaster and you jumped off quick
I rode it to the end and now I’m thru, glad I did, I got the facts
I found the kid that I needed to get more moments with. Now I’m back.
Not a moment I regret. It was never a game,
Not a decision made I would ever change
Not a change I would not make again
In my bubble, Here I go
On my long-winded Nas flow
5am sunrise in the jungle
Hear I am again
Him I am, My damn
A monster, The Man